Hey everyone. I'm here waiting in the Delta terminal at JFK, on the verge of tears. Not because I'm hurt or something emotional happened, but because I was 40 minutes early for my flight. I did not know the cut off time for checked baggage was 45minutes before the flight. And you have to fly with your luggage, so there was nothing I could do. Guess there's no such thing of stand-by here, cause they made me wait an hour so they can book me on the next flight for $50 extra. No way of getting around the fee. This fee was credited to my debit card, which only has about thirty something dollars. So now my bank will charge me an extra $32 dollar overdraft fee. Thanks USBank. Not only that but I have to borrow money cause they charge me $7 a day if the account is negative. It's not easy living in Los Angeles. It's so expensive. Now that I'm in the hole almost a hundred dollars, I have to cut back on eating. Maybe I'll lose some weight. I'm up to 145 anyway. Oh well. I'm just in a very mellow mood right now. I need something to love with all my heart and spoil rotten. I'm thinking about getting a dog. This will also postpone me getting a boyfriend. A year and a half without one and going strong. I guess I just haven't found the right one.
Maybe my cute vegan boy is in another country. If I had the money I'd be all over the place right now, hoping to bump into someone. But no, I'm stuck in the terminal for the next couple hours, and then I have to go home and get back to work. Yippee. Maybe I should move and save a whole bunch of money so I can buy my future boyfriend that doesn't exist presents. Okay now I'm talking crazy talk. That would be kinda cute, but deffinately weird and creepy. He'd like go in my closet and be like...what are all these for? My luck it would be like a week into the relationship. That would be a disaster. I'll just stick to spontaneous surprises. They seem to put the biggest smile on peoples face. I love smiles. It's like I feed off them or something. Like it's gas, and I'm a car. A 1988 Lush M series. Haha I love it. Someone came up to me from another country and said "Cute necklace, only problem is my name is Blush and there's no B." So I told her it was my last name and she smiled and walked away. That made me cheer up a ton more. Yeaya. The music playing in here is like elevator music, and I smell burnt animal flesh. Let me turn around and see where it's coming from. Weird. No one has food. Must be from the restaurant like 40 feet away. Wonder if they get a lot of business in the middle of a terminal. No wonder they want people to come over an hour early! Oh well, I do see everyone has Starbucks coffee cups by their side. NY coffee addicts. I love how theres a Starbucks on every corner in Manhatton. That's so crazy it amazes me. Wish I had a coffee chain like that. ::sigh:: But being in the city made me dream big things. I want to have a huge 50 floor Lush Tower. I want it to be eco friendly, and made out as much recycled stuff as possible. I want to have it in like 15 years, and sell real estate in it. Anywhere from studios, to one bedrooms, to huge suites! Start saving your money everyone! I wish I could own a huge real estate empire, and have it all eco friendly, and donate tons of the profit to good causes. Everyone needs a place to live, so the money would generate so much every month for good causes for decades and decades! Continous good is my goal in these buildings. Okay enough about rambling on about dreams. I just have so many! I dream up new ones every day. And some day most of them will come true. Why? Cause I believe they will. And anything can happen. If I want my Lush Tower to have a huge color changing peace sign up top, it's going to happen! I just realized that they gave me a middle seat. Not a window or an aisle. Ugh. It's my money, and I can't even get what I want. You live and learn though, so now I'm not going to fly with them anymore. I should just get a huge RV and start a nationwide tour for peace and love. That would make me so happy. Just meeting all those people this past weekend made me smile so much. I love how I can make people happy effortlessly. I wish everyone could smile at people, and people would smile back. Not everyone smiles back. Some give nasty looks or very odd faces. Can't win them all. This world needs more love. It's lacking it a big deal. Some lady just asked how I got on the internet. I told her I was writing a blog in Notepad and it wouldn't work. She said she'll go find a business guy, someone who look's like they do this all the time. I can honestly say though I'd probably know just as much as the next guy she's asking. It's free public WiFi, but its only computer to computer. I think it's a joke. Delta must be really good at milking people for money. All the people working here keep walking past and stareing at me. Wonder if its the huge peace sign, or do they think I'm up to no good or something. Omg seriously, every other minute they pass me and glare directly at me. I'm trying to figure out if they're looking at my face or my necklace. ::waits:: While we are waiting, the guy that just walked past was bald on the top, front and sides, but had a huge ponytail about three feet long hanging from the back of his head. It was unique. Okay they're deffinately looking at my necklace. Loves it. Fashion statement +1. I'm really glad this week we got around 3000 sign ups through SocialVibe.com/MatthewLush! So $3,000 has been donated to Charity: Water so far! Our goal for this month is $12,000! So only $9,000 more to go. So three more $3,000 weeks would be nice. Deffinately post a bulletin and tell all your friends about it. Nag them till they sign up. They don't have to pay anything, just sign up and it automatically donates a dollar. Ugh I love talking about SocialVibe. It's such an amazing site. People keep thinking they're paying me or something. Like, are they serious? That's so messed up to even think that. The whole site is based on raising money for good causes. Why would I not promote it as much as I can? That's why we came up with the $1 per sign up agreement. I can't wait for the well to be built and supply hundreds of thousands of people with clean water. This is just the beginning also. Think of the possibilities we can do together! We need to work together as a team and reach our goals, and spread good things! I just thought of an idea. What if I made a page on MatthewLush.com where you can print out something that says everything about how if you sign up it donates a dollar, and people can go to the library and print it and make copies. Then they can cut it out and hand it to people. Then we can really get the whole ball rolling. Get as many people in your school to do it! Imagine if you got one teacher to get everyone in class to do it on the computer. Thats well over a hundred of dollars that teacher helped donate! Tell your teachers! It doesn't hurt to ask! Okay well my battery is running low, so I have to cut this off. Wish I had more battery so I could just keep going and going till my plane comes. This is better than nothing I guess. Thanks everyone for checking out what I wrote, or at least skimmed through it. Really means a lot that I can talk, and people can listen. Respect for every one of you. Stay amazing. Keep dreaming and look towards the future, not the past. Hope you have a great rest of your day. Love you all so very much.
Typo, this is the right sentence; 'I need something to love with all my heart and spoil rotten. I'm thinking about getting a Camilla' Yeah. And come live with me.
haha. that totally reminds me of myself when you were jumpin g from topic to topic.. and I think that you should make a printout page.. I would definately hand it out to everyone! I love you! **smile** <3 beccah melecka
airlines=not fun sometimes. they lost my bags twice while i was in new olreans and when i flew back home. delta's better than american airlines though. believe me.
hey matthew im sorry to hear this happened to you :( just keep ur head strong and u can get through this. i lush you. dont forget all ur fans will be for u always or at least i will. <3 i lush you to death! love, kim
wow...um...in a way that sounds very very cheesy and not to be rude but maybe if yew weren't so picky in if the guy was vegan or not maybe yew would have a nice boyfriend right now and instead he could spoil yew lol!
if smiles could keep you happy forever, i would give you every smile on the face of the planet, and then make some more : ) i really do mean that. seeing you happy always makes me feel better. i hope things get better for you super fast. <3
Aw sorry you've had a bad day Matthew. I would make you soup if I could bring it to you. I hope you feel better, and your day brightens up. I love all you've been doing for social vibe, I love that page too. Funny how people are, I get weird looks all the time. I really do enjoy the few smile people return when I give them. Anyways hope you have a good flight, your day gets brighter, and you feel better. Love you bunches.
Aww:[ I'll make you soup!!!!! Okayy I made it If only I could give it you:[ When I finnaly meet you I will Jk It would be all gross by then Love you Mathew!!!! & EVERYTHING you stand for!!!!!♥
And that's why I hate flying haha. Everything will be ok, just keep your head up. =] And you so should get a dog, like get a little pug or something hehe. I have a sore throat too lol. Lush you.
matthew that made me smile for some reason...even i hate how we have to sit in the goddamn waiting place and u get no internet...i hope your dream about the lush tower comes true that would be amazing i would buy a house from you or something! haha and matthew keep waitting trust me you will meet your cute vegan boy some day and he wont think your creepy! have a safe flight home matthew and you always make me smile! lush you!
Aww, I will come make you soup.lol i hope you get better ; im getting over a cold myself. it started with a sore throat and then my voice was almost gone for three days. : ) .lol. Hope things start looking up XD -k.la
I've never been on a plane. I'm in a relationship now, but a long distance one its hard....But yea You'll find some one out there..I did...except she's 903 miles away. and maybe more.. I have yet to meet her..But I don't have money nor does she, so were sorta in the same boat..I live in New York..but not in the city Ilive three hours away...So you were 15 minutes late? thats crap...at least you didn't show up when it was leaving...geeze poor Matthew I love you! they should have let you on the plane.
Awww... bummer. Don't be sad. It's like an apocalypse when your sad. Matt Lush is to Happy like Animals is to Cute. Or something like that. kay. well. *smiles* Love you.
ugh, that sucks! i'm so sorry. airlines can be the most frustrating thing EVER, it's happened to me too =/
and don't worry, your boyfriend is definitely out there, i'm sure of it. and he'll be really special, and worth the wait =] not that i would know...although i do know dogs are wonderful, i toteffly recommend getting one!
The SocialVibe flyer sounds like a great idea! it would be so helpful. i think i'm gonna go post another bulletin about it now =] i've gotten a lot of my friends to sign up.
haha, and reserve an apartment in the Lush Tower for me!
aww, well things cant always be perfect =/. And I know that someday you'll find someone, and im sure people ell you this all the time, but I believe it's true. Even when your just tired of waiting, cuz thats how I am now. And I have been trying my hardest to get the word out about SoialVibe. But i only got like 3 people to actually do it. I guess they just don like helping the world and only care about themselves =/.
Some airlines are screwed up =(( and i'm sorry that you had to lose that money... i'm sure you've heard this before but don't worry... your boyfriend will come to you someday :] it's just a matter of waiting. Those with patience usually get what they want. and a dog is such a great idea! i can just imagine you strolling down the street with a hyper dog running all over the place. aww! <3 i'm sure it'd keep you good company :]
don't let those uptight people stop you from shining! their glares dont mean a thing when all they're doing is helping to hurt the world.
thats happened to me before. I was at LAX and my plane was supposed to leave at 6:00 pm and it didnt end up leaving until ten or eleven because of 'tecnical difficulties' and they chrged me money because THEY were late. how messed up is that? im sorry ur stuck there. i know how it feels. aww but just dont cry. you'll be all right. ::hugs:: hope when your plane does come that you have a safe flight home :] i love you
GAH, I hate how crazy airlines can be... I'm sorry you got screwed out of money, in so many ways. It seems to be the way of the world that those who are concerned about others are usually the ones that get the lesser end of the good deals in life, but at least you're keeping your chin up. For the record, the cost of living in Orlando is MUCH cheaper than LA.... think about it... lol. Much Love, Lucas T. Pate
So now, what is this? Oh great, another site Matthew Lush is on. Is that what you see? Do you not see the big picture? Why can't you see what I see? Oh wait! Maybe it's because you're not me. But you know what? You still have the opportunity to do something with your life with what I've been trying to show you.
Now is the time to really take control of your life and not let others make decisions for you. Only you can fulfill your own destiny.
Do you look down upon me because I'm not perfect? If you're looking for anything near perfect, you're looking in the wrong place. Stop looking for for perfection; it doesn't exist.
We have a tendency to look down on things that don't fit in our ideal world. But this shouldn't be an automatic reaction. Even those things that don't fit your idea of perfection should be cherished at least as potential... the potential to change... the potential to open up to new things and explore life's many horizons.
When I came out of the closet I had no one to turn to. Not even one close friend. Do you know what it's like to have no friends? I was never the popular one in high school. I struggled through years and years of pain, loneliness and heartbreak.
Eventually I turned to the internet, my hideout from the real world. There I found an opportunity to do something with my life. The internet became my tool for change. My poor aching heart found its passion.
So ask yourself: What empowers you to succeed, and why haven't you done anything about it yet? Here's another tool to do the same thing I'm doing, only the way you want to do it. Think about the endless possibilities you have, and use this space to start writing the story of your life.
My book is far from being published. It won't be a book you can see or touch. Rather it will be something that you can "feel" within you. It will be for those looking for guidance... guidance that one day I shall bring. As I grow, I hope you'll grow with me.
And finally, be positive. As my mother taught me... "Think before you speak!" If you have nothing good to say, don't say anything. Your negativity will not only affect others, it will affect you as well. So be good to yourself.
"They say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." -Andy Warhol
Hey Matthew!! I send you comments on myspace and you never get back to me! =[ Are you going to warped tour pomona?? Comment me back at myspace.com/joehollywood
I was wondering wether there is any possibility to get an autographed poster from you..because I live in Germany and therefore it's impossible for me to come to any event like bamboozle and stuff...
AND I did a video supporting your "Charity: Water"-donations..I postedt it as a response to your video... ^^
Please take some time to read this Matthew :D Have you ever being to the UK? If so, myself and my friends were thinking about starting a petition to bring you over to Britain!? Please message me back on uber or myspace [www.myspace.com/cpolivia - your already a friend] Thank you! Lush Youu x
So I got onto this site because you always make such a big deal about it on myspace and I've been looking for a new place to blog...But this site confuses me so much. haha.
hey im srry about the haters u have to deal with u are a wonderful person and i love u too teehee uuummmm i look up to you cause ur the one who opened up my eyes about animal cruelty and all that stuff and just to let u know i am vegatiarian now because of you and what you do .......sooo much love
awww hun it's ok...your still the most awesomest guy i have ever had the plesure of "knowing" and i say it like that cuz i rly dont know you in persone just on here...but anyways you are an amazing persone trying to help the world, you have done so much and you have such a big heart so what if people think you have changed, your still the same guy to most of your friends and we are always here for you and i will laways be your internet friend. dont worry about what people think of you, you are who you are and thats all you can be if they dont like it then thats there prob. you cant please everyone. you have done your best and you have come a long way and had a gr8 time and hopfully it will continue..i will always be here for you no matter what anyone says....i say this for every1 that cares when i say I love you. dont beat your self down cuz a few people think you have changed just keep "trucken" along and you will be alright. :D -mwahs-
i cant belive that people have been saying that uve changed. i honestly dont think u have at all except for that hair oboviously.no matter what happens i'll always love yu.<3
This site is pretty cool. I'm glad I finally got around to seeing the youtube videos for the first time in a few months. Haven't been able to get on my computer until just recently.
THE VIDEO TOTALLY MADE MY DAY!!! I WAS SAD AND IT ACTUALLY MADE ME SMILE YAY!!! NOT DEPRESSED ANYMORE THANK YEW SO MUCH!!! THE BEST SWEET AFTER ALL THE SOUR!! THANK YEW ONCE AGAIN!!!!! LOVE YEW MATTHEW!!!!! ======JENNY/JUICEY JUICE========
do u have a nickname?????mine is S.T. for silent treatment...because im emo and i have to go to a phsyco place for treatment...but i won't talk 2 ne1.can u guess y???
watching your bamboozle videos, you should come to one if there's in kansas or close to missouri. haha c: and my veryvery first paycheck i'm buying one of your necklaces, that's a promise. :) faggerfo'life.<3 haha.
Yeah. And come live with me.